Recently, someone asked me if I teach painting to kids. It made me reflect on where I am as an artist. While I love creating arts and feel like I’ve grown a lot, I don’t think I’m ready to teach.

For one, I’m incredibly shy. I don’t like being the center of attention. Sure, I enjoy hearing good comments and feedbacks about my work—it’s encouraging! But standing in front of a group of people with all eyes on me? That’s a whole different level of pressure. Just thinking about it makes my heart race.

Another reason is that I’m still figuring things out myself. I’m a self-taught artist, and most of what I know comes from experimenting. I rarely follow tutorials or structured lessons, so my process is all trial and error. Because of this, I don’t have a clear method to pass on to others. Teaching requires a certain level of organization that I just don’t have right now.

But even with these challenges, the idea of teaching art someday excites me. It’s part of my dream—to inspire and guide young artists the way I’ve been inspired by others. For now, I’m focusing on improving my skills and building confidence. I’ve also realized that sharing small tips or insights is a way of teaching in itself, even if it’s not in a formal setting.

I hope that with time, I’ll grow into someone who’s ready to lead a class and share what I know. Until then, I’ll keep creating, learning, and dreaming of the day I’ll be able to teach with confidence.